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Been longer than usual since I posted. Its been a crazy few days, the details of which really don’t belong published on the web so… suffice to say I had to make some difficult career choices and the dust is starting to settle.

Running continues to progress. We had our first recovery run on Saturday. My group and another were nominated to bring food, and, joy, I was the only one in attendance so that was me. I think I’ll just politely opt out next time our # is up. The grocery store had watermelons for $5 a pop, so I just had to get one… sliced it up so the pieces were still mostly connected, wrapped in saran wrap, and stuck in fridge to cool. it insulates well that way and was still nearly ice cold when people got back from the run. Needless to say it was utterly decimated and the rest of the food is in my fridge feeding me while Peter is back east at his company’s headquarters.

Since my pace group was absent, I dropped back to the one below us and figured out how they always end up at more or less the same speed… our 2nd mile was done in 11 mins and we had to slow WAY down, as coach threatened any pace group who finished early with an extra half mile… I had no trouble keeping up, but I wasn’t exactly feeling slowed down all that much either! They were also a quieter bunch than my usual group, and I’m looking forward to the constant chatter while running 14 miles this coming Saturday. Which reminds me. Hey mom, you said I should do a half marathon before going for the whole enchilada? 😛 see ya Saturday baby, it’s gonna happen.

I managed to slack off all exercise between then and now… got stressed, ate ice cream, was a bum. I know exercise is the perfect way to burn off stress but… 😛 like I listen to myself when I’m struggling with personal and interpersonal drama! Monday and today I had some really good chances to destress, including a LONG chat with a friend at my mentorship group who has been through a very similar situation, and had the stability of mind to want to go running today (if I’m stressed and run alone… oi, I can’t get my mind off it with no mental distractions!) So I did my usual route, not pushing at all and thinking I was going slow as molasses… 50:30. that’s eleven and a half mins per mile “slow” 🙂 and I felt better than I have in about a week at the end of it. Its nice to be feeling me again.

On the knitting front… I engaged in some serious retail therapy after Sat’s run. A yarn store not 1 mile from our run site, Yarn Dogs, happened to be having an anniversary sale, so I stopped in. I got some of my new favorite yarn, Crystal Palace Panda Silk, in colors not completely unlike the marathon logo, another ball of the stuff I couldn’t resist in shades of yellow, some Trekking in gray from their natura line, and some alpaca sweater yarn for peter. All within budget from the remaining $ I’ve earned at the store that hasn’t been donated. Then tonight, with Peter gone, I headed out to another favorite hangout, Knitting Arts for Tuesday night sock/lace club (I never remember which night is which so I just bring lace socks every week I show up!) I was working on the Panda silk version of the golden gate bridge sport socks (BTW its much better yarn for showing off the bridge, wait til I get them done and photoed!) and so I had to explain why I was knitting sports socks. Lots of folks there have also been part of similar events (some TnT folks, others who do swimming or walking events for charity) so it was a good time and I hope some of the crowd has tuned in! I do wish KA was a little closer to me so I could get there more often. BTW I’m about half done with the first sock, and when the pair is done I’ll take photos and likely use this one as the official pattern photo.

The other development in my life is I am looking to expand my current career options and am actively looking for adjunct teaching opportunities. I need some steadier, more predictable income while I work on and wait out the practice growth curve, and I’m actually starting to miss academia. I guess I haven’t forgotten enough (they only let you leave school if you forget a sufficient portion of what you’re supposed to learn, you see). Hopefully I’ll make some progress on that in the coming week or two! Right now its in the “where do I start” phase so if anyone has been there, done that, I’d love to hear advice!

Today was an interesting day.  Started out with one very happy realization – I woke up and wasn’t significantly sore.  YAY!  Since I was definitely feeling it right after yesterday’s 3.6 miles, I was happy to feel good today.  A bit stiff, but not achy and hurting.  I think both that my body is getting used to the idea that I’m going to ask it to pound the pavement on a regular basis, and that the new shoes have my legs aligned right to do so with minimal damage.

One of today’s activities was my monthly psychologists’ mentorship meeting.  Its a group of new and seasoned shrinks who gather in the home of Loiuse Stirpe-Gill, one of the 2 leaders.  Its been an interesting group, loads of advice, and also some struggles.  A long-term mentee member, Don Bradely, showed up again today and we made a rather fun connection.  Don came to psychology as a second career, in his 50’s, and has been attending the mentorship group off and on for most of its 10 years of existence.  He’s chatty and a good storyteller, and was regaling us with his tales of teaching psych 100 at a local non-psych professional school.  At which point I’m realizing both…  I do miss teaching, and uhhh….  what’s stopping me?  So I may be looking for a class or two to teach.  In a perfect world I’d be teaching child assessment.

I happened also to bring up in passing (someone made the “its not a race its a marathon” analogy) that I’d decided to run a marathon as part of my overall self-car/lifestyle change, talking about how our clients seem to be able to reach goals we ourselves have struggled with and won.  I learned after the group, as we were chatting our way out the door, that Don has run 4 marathons himself!  We chatted a bit about how great an equalizer distance running is – its not about winning times or competition, its about striving within yourself, and everyone out there willing to do that striving is a friend and welcome – black, white, gay, straight, young, old, you name it.  Its funny.  I’ve never wanted to exercise around others until now – I just was too uncomfortable with my body.  And I always saw running in particular as a solitary, almost meditative activity.  But now I know you can set a conversational pace, you smile, wave, even high-5 people you pass on the trail – its really does bring a camaraderie I hadn’t even known how deeply I was craving.  I think if I stick with running in particular after reaching this goal…  this will be what keeps me here.  That connection with other people who are willing to reach for their best, and encourage others to do the same.  Here’s to hoping that holds me through the work to come!

SF AIDS Marathon 2008

On August 3, myself and about 500 other runners will complete the San Francisco marathon in an effort to raise $1,000,000 for the San Francisco AIDS Foundation. This is the culmination of nearly 2 years of lifestyle changes and weight loss for me, and a chance for me to use my new-found energy and fitness to give back to my community. I hope you will join me in this effort by reading and offering your support through my blog. If you are able, I also welcome your contribution to the cause! Thanks and keep on running!

Progress Bar:

Marathon time: 5:40:22
Total Raised: $2,815.70

My Sponsors

I'd like to thank the following organizations and individuals for their support of the SF AIDS Foundation!

Dianne Whitfield of the Bunny Hay Loft

Ulf Anvin
Rob Millner
Scott Lamb
Jeff Barlow
Erika Duplantis
Nick and Carol Esser
Kathryn Mercer
Nicole Pauls
Kathryn Coll
Timothy Berger
Susan Druding
Jenny Forman
Kathryn Mulgrew
Jamie Piperberg
Lucia Sanchez
Fran Taillon
Douglas Leeder
Barbara Kirsch
Ellen Atkinson
Valerie Esser
Peter McCourt
Carla Schroder
Sandra Spicher
Matthew Wilson
Valorie Zimmerman
Kathryn Kramer
Roxanne Seabright
Gayathri Swaminathan
Jason Spiro
Dianne Schoenberg

Thank you so very much for your support!

April 2021

Knitting projects!